Off-kilter

Tomorrow I'm going down to MUIC to register for my graduation. I'm still in a bit of shock that I am actually graduating. This means (wait for it...) I am an adult. An adult. Me?!? I still find it hard to stop saying "freaking" and I have no idea how to do taxes, park parallel to the sidewalk or keep myself from mumbling "stupid" when people do something...well, stupid. Yet, they're allowing me to wear that gown and receive my diploma from a member of the royal family. Maybe that means it's all in my head - my non-acceptance of my adulthood, that is. Lately I've been feeling a bit off-kilter, which I chalk up to the onslaught of stuff happening. Ever feel like the world is falling down all around you? It's not bad, really, but it's just not good either. It's...weird. Sometimes I wish there was some way to peek into the future and see how everything turns out. Just ten seconds, that's all I need. Ten seconds to give me a clue as to where it's all headed.

Final thought: Sigh... :(