I don't need Loy Krathong
11.24.07 (11:53 pm) [edit]
It's Loy Krathong over here, the full moon festival. Fireworks are going every five seconds. People are swarming around various bodies of water with their krathongs - sections of a banana tree decorated with flowers, candles and joss sticks - waiting to float them as a tribute to Mae Kongka, the goddess of the river. The point is to float away all the sorrows of this year and hope for better luck next year. Can you believe, I've lived in Thailand over a decade and have never floated a krathong? I guess I believe in my own ability to make things okay for myself, although sometimes I do feel that my life is spiraling out of control. I've had a nervous breakdown before, back when I was doing my master's. I literally fell to pieces. It was not pleasant and I swore to myself to never let it happen again. The older I get, the more I realize that I am in control of my own life. Perhaps not my destiny, but my life for sure. I've done a lot of emotional housekeeping this year, clearing out the deadwood. I realize that a lot of people make me feel nothing but anger, sadness and despair. Why on Earth should I still hang out with them? It didn't make sense to let them suck my energy and beat me down. So I got rid of them. Not in a Mafia way, hahaha. Just...don't think about them anymore. It's been really helpful. Made my life clearer. I have sooooo much going on, it's not even funny. I don't have time to f* around with jerks. So, that's how I'm making sure I have a better time next year, taking things into my own hands.
Final thought: Happy Loy Krathong!
Final thought: Happy Loy Krathong!
posted by: lostin2007 (reply)
post date: 11.24.07 (7:41 pm)
Loy Krathong sounds like a beautiful festival. I think it's great that you are doing emotional housekeeping because there is no room for toxic people in your life. Way to take control of your life! wooohooo! *hugs*
posted by: SupremeAnna (reply)
post date: 12.01.07 (11:10 am)
Reply to: lostin2007
thank you dropping in. take care *hugs*
posted by: sebastianjoshua (reply)
post date: 12.04.07 (6:45 pm)
a happy festive indeed...
smile and have fun :-)