Totally crushing on Dean Winchester
Okay, have I mentioned how incredibly hot I find Jensen Ackles? He's plays the smokin' hot older brother on Supernatural and I readily admit, though I love the show on its own merits (great writing, great location, good arc), I have to confess a major part of the pull is Dean Winchester (aka Jensen Ackles). Okay, it's not often that I get a celebrity crush. I mean, I like to think of myself as a sophisticated, level-headed, no-nonsense young woman. Way too cool for anything like that. But I swear, there is something about that man's eyes that melts the logic right outta me. Like today, I was channel-surfing and came across a commercial for his movie Devour, and even the commercial was atrocious. Yet I actually found myself thinking, "Oooh, I wanna watch that" - just coz he was in it! Even I think that's the pathetic. Okay, so really, it's not the actor I'm into, but the character. However, character and actor share the same physical presence, and since the physical presence is one of his draws, can I be blamed for actually considering watching a second-rate movie? There's just something so exhilirating about Dean Winchester. Hear me out, I know he's a fictional character, but he's fleshed out pretty well and I like that. Like Spike. Spike. The souled vampire formerly known as William the Bloody on Buffy, The Vampire Slayer. He is my kinda man. Yes, he is technically a mass murderer. Yes, he is a would-be rapist. Yes, he is all kinds of evil. Yes, he's a fictional character. Yet there is something so mesmerizing about him, about the way he looks, about the way he moves. I'm not particularly attracted to "bad boys"; it's such a cliche. But I don't see Spike as a bad boy. I see him as someone who, all his life, played by the rules, toed the line, and when he finally given the chance to toss off the shackles of society - he did, with a venegeance. Then, he realized what it all meant and he grieved. Redemption is so sexy on a man. And he loves - fiercely. I can relate to that, I feel things so deeply, it cuts me sometimes. Been trying on work on that, live my life based more on reality, making myself see that people don't always appreciate or care for my brand of intensity. But Spike has that intensity. And so does Dean. He's got this cocky, devil-may-care attitude, but underneath it, you know he cares intensely for his little messed-up family and that really gets to me. Sure all the glory goes to black sheep little brother Sam, but Dean is shown as the better fighter, the one who actually cares about their job and he gets most of the good lines, ("Dude, I full-on Swayzed that mother!"). I know if the show weren't on network TV, he'd be doing a lot more swearing, so it's not as realistic, character-wise, as you can get, but I'm not complaining. Something inherently lovable about him, something that makes you wanna take care of him and be taken care of by him. Love that feeling. Doesn't hurt that the actor portraying him could set off a fire alarm with his looks, either. 
Final thought: "The three of us, that's all we have. And it's all I have." Dean Winchester, Supernatural