Angry, but not completely
My anger hasn't completely subsided. Guess it's a bit like a forest fire, embers of it remain, but it isn't the raging inferno it was yesterday. It's not that it burned itself out; my personality is not like that. Some people, when they fly into a rage, give them a few minutes, a few hours, a few days, and they're fine. Not so for me. My anger feeds on itself, growing larger and stronger and more deadly with the passing of time. The only remedy is to attack it immediately. In the event of a fight, I need no "cooling-off" period. I want to break it down right then and there. I think I'm the minority, because most people seem to prefer going to separate corners and letting off some steam before regrouping. Leaving a fight just angers me more. Of course, life is a compromise and to survive, you must evolve. So, sometimes, with a select few, I will actually be the one to initiate a reconciliation. My attempt, of course, eases my rage up a few notches, but being placated evens things out and sometimes, I'll feel okay right away. Sometimes, like today, my anger will taper off, but fragments of it remain. The revelations of my life remain however, and I meant what I said - I'm going to live my life more realistically. I'm going to pay attention to reality, and try not to sugarcoat things too much. I'm still working on cutting off my emotions from others, but it's hard to break a lifetime habit.
Final thought: Isn't there any phrase that's softer than "F*ck off" that I can employ? That's what I'm feeling in any case, but I don't feel the need to swear.
posted by: laydeepulse (reply)
post date: 09.03.06 (6:54 am)
I knwo what you mean aout cooling off periods really getting you even more fired up.
If it matters to me and I am angry, leaving will not help, because then I will go off and think to myself on how the other person wronged me, angering myself more, instead of working it out.
On the other hand, if someone is getting mad and I think its astupid reason, I tell them to go away until they are done being dumb. lol.
posted by: inkspector (reply)
post date: 09.03.06 (7:30 am)
Excuse me? works too.
My Mom use to say "Buzz off."
posted by: SupremeAnna (reply)
post date: 09.05.06 (7:33 am)
Reply to: laydeepulse
"On the other hand, if someone is getting mad and I think its astupid reason, I tell them to go away until they are done being dumb." LOL, you are sooooo right. :)
posted by: SupremeAnna (reply)
post date: 09.05.06 (7:34 am)
Reply to: godsmack
i like "jack off", but it still might be a bit strong
posted by: SupremeAnna (reply)
post date: 09.05.06 (7:36 am)
Reply to: inkspector
"Excuse me?" I like that.
posted by: SupremeAnna (reply)
post date: 09.05.06 (7:36 am)
Reply to: LadyG
Hmm, I'll take that into consideration. Thanks for the suggestion.
posted by: inkspector (reply)
post date: 09.05.06 (7:46 am)
Excuse me is so non threatening. It makes the other person think of what he or she has said, or acted.