This Week

Monday. Tough week this is gonna be. Lots of work. Hard decisions that had to be made and enforced. Gonna take lots of strength and effort on my part. Gotta stick to my guns. Not really looking forward to this week, but what can you do? Take the bitter with the sweet; I'm paraphrasing my father, but that's basically what he always says. So much work has to be put in for the really fun bits to happen. I'm at such a low point right at this very moment. I don't want to be here anymore - and by here, I don't mean in this major, at this university, in this country, I mean here, in this life, in this skin - I wish I could just cut and run. I feel so fat, so ugly, so un- unlovable, unlucky and unreasonable and most of all, unmotivated. Last night, I just lay there on my bed thinking, "Do I mean anything to anyone anywhere?" Still trying to answer that one. At much as I try to live my life with my emotions separate from those around me, I can't seem to do it.Well, that was a meaningless little rant.

Final thought: Give me patience for this week.