Who I am

My horoscope for today reads: "It's time to face the truth of who you are, rather than act like who you think you are. It's never easy to find your own values, but in order to live well, it's absolutely necessary. Remember your essential nature." Who am I? I'm a mean, sulky, unreasonable, easily angered, incoherent, unnecessarily cruel, uptight, overly serious, list-making, nonsense-blogging, boring, not-overly-clever, verbose, thick-headed, thick-waisted, corny, much-too-stressed, crazy girl. If that was your essential nature, wouldn't you try to be someone else? Yes, you probably would, and there was a time in my life when I would've tried to be someone else - not just a better version of me, but someone else, a nicer someone, my conception of better. Then I realized you can never win. No matter what you do, no matter what you try, there will always be someone who has a bone of contention with you. Why should I put myself out when it doesn't matter anyway? Nowadays, my only criterion for a good life is: did I kill anyone? If I haven't, I'm thinking that's the most society should ask of me. It probably means I'll be spending the rest of my life alone or with six dozen fish in an overly-maintained fish tank, but that's the way the cookie crumbles. Doesn't mean I haven't stopped caring slightly about what other people think about me, but I take it less seriously than I did before.

Final thought: This is who I am. Period.