Drive me crazy
Lately I find I constantly have my head stuck in a book. Or in front of my computer screen, scrolling through source after source after source, trying to find those that are relevant to my field of research. If I was a bookworm before, I am a book-elephant by now! Did you ever get to that point in your life when nothing seems right? You're ugly, you're mean, you're not smart enough, you're not funny, you don't get anything? Yeah, I'm at that point right now and the only thing standing between me and the abyss of true insanity is a thick sheaf of research I have to sift through. I keep giving myself pep talks. It's the only way I stop myself from going berserk and kicking some random stranger in the head. Grad school can drive you crazy, if you let it. Enough griping for tonight. I have a make-up class tomorrow and it's past my bedtime and no one's talking to me on MSN.
Final thought: Leaning out over/ The dreadful precipice/ One contemptuous tree. W.H. Auden