Folded Paper Life
Recently, I came across the blog of an old acquaintance, this annoying guy I knew since the fifth grade. Out of sheer curiousity, I decided to read what this dork had to say - and I was shocked to see some of the same emotional undertones in his blog, that were also in mine. Oh, boy, slam the brakes! When you start sounding like someone who you can barely stand to share the same planet with, it's time to take a good, long look at yourself, am I right? So, unless it's a major crisis, I've decided the griping is best shelved for the moment. Instead, I've decided to just write whatever comes to mind - of the positive nature, that is (more or less). The major goal of my life now is to to strive for contentness. With this in mind, I've taken up a new hobby. Origami. That's right - the art of paperfolding. It's very relaxing really (well, except maybe when I'm struggling with a sink fold). I can now fold a decent flower box and an almost pretty lily. This is yet another time in my life that I wish I was better at math. Apparently, being good at math helps with origami, something about the way the mind works. Sometimes I think the best solution to all the quandries in my life is to just step back and look at them objectively, without emotion. In that way, I think origami is a sort of metaphor for life. If you go into folding something with emotion, with anger or pride or whatever, you're screwed. It takes patience, calm, a level head. Sometimes, you have to stop and walk away. You have to look at the paper from a different angle. Then - boom! Oh, it's like that, that's how that fold is executed. Once you're done, you wonder how you could ever have been so foolish. I've been thinking that lately; I also have the sneaking suspicion that I will have these same thoughts in the next five years, the next ten years, the next twenty...you get the picture. Priorities change. I've just realized I ought to change with them.
Final thought: Hindsight is 20/20. :idea:
In Limbo
My, what a lag between updates. Well, you know, some of the same old, same old...and some, not so same old and that's all I wanna say about that. Emotionally, I'm not sure where I stand right now. School's out for the moment, but of course, this being grad school, they couldn't leave well enough alone and I have to think up ideas for my individual study. Big whoop. My personal life...? Ha. My "personal" life now consists of watching reruns of Arrested Development and assembling puzzles. Don't get me wrong - I find this fun. I believe boredom is simply a state of mind; I'm enjoying my quiet time. Really. But it's just...stuff. On the plus side, Marc and Kwan are now off to England (fish and chips, BBC accents and Big Ben, oh my!), and I'm happy for them. Bimmy's getting ready to take the world by storm. Miko's got a plan (I love plans) and apparently, June's safe, despite the hurricanes buffeting Taiwan, so really, on the friend front, all is well (except for the fact that Smithi's MIA). But...I don't know. My life has sort of ground to a standstill and it's neither pleasant nor unpleasant.
The other day it just hit me that I really missed Meteor Garden, this corny Taiwanese soap opera I used to watch with Miko and Kwan. Man, that show was sappy! I'm talking extreme cheese factor - but it made me happy. I kinda miss having that kind of stuff to look forward to, you know? My life would be one dull TV show right now; dull for the viewers, anyhow. For this main character though...well, she's content and that's always a good thing, huh? Ah well, I have bigger stuff to deal with.
Final thought: From Summer Sunshine (The Corrs)
Everyone's changing, I stay the same
I'm a solo cello outside a chorus
I've got a secret,
It's time for me to tell it
You've been keeping me warm
To sweet beginnings and bitter endings
In coffee city, we borrowed heaven
Don't give it back, I've never felt so wanted
Are you taking me home?
You tell me you have to go…