Official: No Eye Candy
Went down to Chula today to pay my tuition and register for classes. I don't mean to sound shallow, but there are no cute guys in my faculty - in fact, it's pretty female-dominated. The only guys there are of the homosexual persuasion and this would be okay, but they're not cute. Listen, I'm not crazy or anything, but I like a little bit of eye candy just like anyone else. I know, I know, it's all about the learning experience but after the paucity (i.e. only two moderately good-looking guys) of cuteness at MUIC, I had some hopes. Now they're crushed. Crushed.
Final thought: I must seem like the boy-craziest shallow idiot ever but I really don't care. :wink: Sometimes, you gotta be a little nuts to deal with life.
Rainy Sunday
It rained cats and dogs today and for the first time since I've lived here, the streets around my house are flooded. I guess we're just catching up to the rest of Bangkok, which becomes a quagmire come monsoon season. If it weren't such a hassle, I'd be happier. I love rain. I love the sound of it, the smell of it, the feel of it. Strangely enough though, the water (as in large bodies of water like the ocean) hold no appeal for me. Could be linked to the fact that I can't swim and nearly drowned as a child. Still, love rain. Can't get enough of it. Just wanted to wish everyone a happy rainy day!
Final thought: Rain, rain, don't go away, come again another day!
Crash
Confession: I read my horoscope every so often. My favorite is at Yahoo; it's so accurate sometimes. I get shivers. Today it reads "Obviously, you've been a very good little Aries this year, because not only is Christmas coming early, Santa will also arrive with every single thing you put on your wish list. That's not an easy feat to pull off, of course -- being that good -- but recently, you've been undeniably loyal, faithful, hardworking and cheerful. All that's left for you now is to smile and thank the powers that be for noticing." This is fairly accurate. Well, I can honestly say I tried to be good, to stay out of trouble. But what happens when trouble comes looking for you? I think one of the worst things in this world is when you're sitting around, minding your own business and BAM! Trouble - with a capital T - comes at you full throttle. Many times, I've been in really bad arguments where I and the other party say awful things that we may or may not mean. Most of the time, I mean them. I always try to say what I mean and mean what I say, even in the heat of an argument. Often, one or both of us will walk away. Unless I'm absolutely, positively sure I'm in the wrong, I will not go after the other person to apologize. At this point, I will think, "That's over." But then, for some unfathomable reason, the other person will call or come by - and want to make nice! See what I mean by trouble? You know it's just a train wreck waiting to happen. So, I don't place too much faith in horoscopes. They have yet to predict such accidents within an acceptable confidence interval.
Final thought: Some accidents are unavoidable.
Learning
Today was a pretty quiet day. The highlight was when I woke up and it was raining. That didn't last though; by the time I was showered and dressed, the sun was out full force. I really don't like Mondays - nothing on TV and reminds me that I will be starting grad school soon (although I only have class on Wednesdays and Thursdays when it begins. Still, Mondays make me think of work). When I was little, I remember telling my mom one day when she came to wake me to go to school that I wanted to quit. She didn't say anything, just left, but came back in a few minutes and told me, "They said you can't quit." And I dutifully got up and went to school. So, although a lot of people might look at me and think I'm one of those people who love school (do these people exist? Do they have a 12-step program they're willing to distribute?) because I always make it a point to be in class on time and hand in all my assignments and get mad at instructors for cancelling classes, I actually don't. I just think of it as a necessary evil. Plus, I work very well in a structured environment. If it were up to me though, I'd stay home watching TV and eating chips. Literally. But, I always was one for responsibility. I enjoy learning, ironically enough. Just today, I looked up what all the titles mean in British nobility (for the heck of it), how lockpicking works and what exactly kitten heels are. Fascinating subjects all. Maybe I would have thrived better in a Montessori school. Oh, well, such is the way of the world.
Final thought: Rainy days don't get me down, but Mondays do. Sorry Karen Carpenter. :wink:
In the moment
Currently, I am:
1) Listening over and over again to Mariah Carey's We Belong Together. So glad she realized that a) she can't act and b) amount of clothing is not inversely associated with age.
2) Double-checking my registration stuff for Chulalongkorn.
3) Finding out info on the Guangzhou acrobatics troupe for my grandmother, who has decided she wants to see it.
4) Waiting expectantly for Batman Begins to make it to Thailand.
5) Craving something cold, maybe a sherbet of some sort. It's freaking hot, even though it rained practically every day this week.
6) Feeling a little left out coz if I were back at university, tomorrow would be a compensation for today's Buddhist holiday (Visaka - I think it's like Buddha's birthday, day of enlightenment and so forth. Don't know for sure, I'm not Buddhist) and most likely, I'd be up to some mischief.
7) Wanting to get up and dance (still got the fever in my soul), but maybe later.
8) Making a mental list of the tasks that must be completed this week, chief of which is buying a regulation skirt for graduation. Must follow procedure or they won't let me in (what with it being a ceremony with a member of the royal family and all).
9) Missing MUIC slightly...
10) Thinking of ... everyone.
Final thought: We live second to second, and we are never the same again. :wink:
Turn the beat around
We went out clubbing last night to Escudo - me, my best friend and bunch of her friends, including this guy she knew in high school and her old tutor. I went nuts and the crazy part is, I was the only one who was stone cold sober. The only drinks I had were a virgin Cosmopolitan and a ton of Pepsi. Everyone else was having margaritas and Red Label, but I don't drink alcohol. I never set out to be a teetotaler; it's just the way it happened. I don't like the taste or smell of alcohol, so I guess that played a part. Anyhow, even without the alcohol, I was still the nuttiest one there. Imagine what I would have been like drunk. I danced like crazy, to every song, even when everyone else sat down to rest, I just kept going. When they played that Nelly song Dilemma, I practically gave everyone a heart attack jumping up and down and screaming. I love that song. I know, I know, it's so two years ago, but I love it anyway and I dance to it all the time at home. It seems everytime I go out to a club, for the first hour or so, when everyone's drinking and smoking, they play the good songs. By the time I can convince someone to get out onto the floor and shake their groove thing with me, they're playing all this awful remix junk that's danceable, yes, but what about the popular songs? Still, I danced the night away quite blissfully and had a lot of fun. Now, if I could just somewhere in Thailand where all people do is dance, I'll be one happy girl.
Final thought: What a feeling...(anyone know that song?) :P
Confusion
Things I'm confused by at the moment:
1. The fact that FOX won't air the final episode of Tru Calling.
2. How on Earth I got a scar on the back of my ankle.
3. Why Zhang Ziyi is playing Nitta Sayuri in the film adaptation of Memoirs of a Geisha http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0...
4. Where I can find a good milkshake in Thailand.
5. The fact that a dentist told me to get four (count them, four) teeth pulled.
6. How is it I can listen to the same song over and over again yet still be unable to sing nothing more than the chorus.
7. How Smithi, Miko, Kwan, Marc and June are doing.
8. What song features these lyrics "are you going to stay with the one who loves you", and has a really nice saxophone solo.
9. Why I'm such a mean person.
10. How anyone can still be friends with someone who pays absolutely no attention to them and changes moods like they were controlled by a temperamental lightswitch.
Final thought: I was taught to never be afraid to say "I don't know." It's the only way you'll learn. 8)
So many questions...
I only have questions for my blog today. Can someone please answer this question for me: if someone was mean to you, deliberately, unreasonably, horribly mean, would you forgive them? To rephrase that, would you actually call them to say “I forgive you”? And if this person said, “You know what? I’m cruel for the hell of it”, would you still want to be friends with them? And if the answer is yes, would you be doing it just to wait for the opportunity to get back at them? Just wondering.
Final thought: Don’t say I didn’t warn you. :twisted:
Off-kilter
Tomorrow I'm going down to MUIC to register for my graduation. I'm still in a bit of shock that I am actually graduating. This means (wait for it...) I am an adult. An adult. Me?!? I still find it hard to stop saying "freaking" and I have no idea how to do taxes, park parallel to the sidewalk or keep myself from mumbling "stupid" when people do something...well, stupid. Yet, they're allowing me to wear that gown and receive my diploma from a member of the royal family. Maybe that means it's all in my head - my non-acceptance of my adulthood, that is. Lately I've been feeling a bit off-kilter, which I chalk up to the onslaught of stuff happening. Ever feel like the world is falling down all around you? It's not bad, really, but it's just not good either. It's...weird. Sometimes I wish there was some way to peek into the future and see how everything turns out. Just ten seconds, that's all I need. Ten seconds to give me a clue as to where it's all headed.
Final thought: Sigh... :(
10 random thoughts for Monday
Ten things that occurred at least once to me today.
1. Why aren't there Krispy Kremes in Thailand?
2. I can't lick the tip of my nose.
3. Chris Pine is cute...really, really cute.
4. Man, it's freaking hot!
5. How much wood could a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could (and would) chuck wood?
6. Perhaps I ought to read Sense and Sensibility.
7. Why don't they sell ring pops in Thailand anymore?
8. I want to marry Chris Pine.
9. Who moved my cheese?
10. My nose is huge!
Final thought: The follies of the human mind... :P
Justice League of Anna
Am I a bad person? Am I bad person because I won't roll over and let people stomp all over me? Does not wanting to be taken advantage of mean I'm a horrible human being? I know this is not going to make much sense to anyone and come off as nothing but an egotistical rant but it's nearing one in the morning and I truly could care less. I hate injusticte. HATE IT. Have fought bitterly against it from my earliest days like some kind of real-life superhero sans superpowers. So why is it that my family is more than perfectly willing to just sit back, kick up their feet and let people trample over them like they were uncut grass? Is it wrong of me to not want to be a doormat? Yet, why do I feel so bad? Someone tell me how we can differ so much from our families and still share such a vast majority of DNA. No, seriously, please, someone...anyone!
Final thought: Sometimes I really hate being right. :(